Starting Paranoia (Jay)

[Jadyn Amethyst]

When she didn’t promise not to hit him he fell silent for a moment feeling like a total jerk. He hadn’t meant to say anything bad, he thought they were kidding around, but nope he’d made her mad. Sighing he sat there shuffling his feet over the floor wiggling his fingers at Ruby to come over. At least when he gave her love she didn’t get mad at him. And why was it such a bad thing that he found her attractive and actually wanted to kiss her? It wasn’t like he was hinting at doing anything more he was nowhere near ready to go all the way. They’d just started, um, a relationship.

Ruby nuzzled his hand eyeing the other person not climbing into his lap instead just sitting there staring at Aponi. When she described Aaran or Sophie or her son or whatever he was to Jay his heart sank even more. She really liked just ruining any possible good mood he might have didn’t she? Pulling his arm away from her he picked up Ruby giving her a quick kiss on the head before lifting her up to let her snuggle on the bed. At least the small squirrel could be happy someone had to be in this room.

After his small flip out seeing that she was just going to sit there and stew he sighed going to his knees in front of her. “No, I don’t and you know it. I’m only sixteen.” Running his hands over his face and into his hair he ended up taking off his eye patch. He wanted to make her happy but he had no clue as how to do that. Jay was not a people person and he knew nothing about relationships romantic ones or otherwise. What would make him happy if gloomy would probably not make her happy, probably only make her mad at him. “Is there anything I can do? Other than give you booze?”

For one he wasn’t allowed to buy alcohol, and secondly he did not want to enable what could possibly become and addiction. So many things were running through his head to try and say to make her feel better, but each time he thought of something he shot it down. Nothing sounded right, nothing sounded good enough, and most of it would probably make her mad. So in the end he leaned over to grab her hands and kissed her forehead. “I wish I knew how to make you happy again.”

((Why am I a lust wench??))

[Aponi Lebennon]

"Jay, there isn't really much you can do." She said, wistfully. "You just have to let things run their course." She left it hanging, glaring at him dolefully. She didn't really want to face him like this - it wasn't fair. She looked at him, with large eyes, tears almost welling up there.

"Look, Jay, I'm gonna go. I need to go lose myself into insensibility, and I don't really want you, or anyone else, for that matter, there while I do it." She frowned, holding him close to her, and rocking abck and forth for her own comfort more than his.

"But, Jadyn, I... err... I don't want you to think this is something to do with you. I felt worse than this when I came to see you, and you made me feel better. But I think I jsut need to be alone at the moment." She sighed wistfully. She felt like a total bitch for just leaving Jay like this - how could she be such a monster?

Well, she followed the example of her parents. She got up, and held her hand out to him. Her face was pictureesque, and very sad. She hated herself for giving in to weakness, and letting Jadyn down, but she couldn' help it. And he had said he didn't want her to change.

{{OOC:Sorry for shortness, lateness, and all around general rubbish. Think it's time to come to an end for now - at this point in her timeline Aponi is still really depressed about Her dad. THis is like the 5th time I've written this as my computer keeps failing.}}